Trapped in the Mirror of my mind

You are trapped in a cage..
no one sees it.. not even you..
you don't know what it's made of..
you don't even know where it came from.. In times of trouble and insanity
I carry masks to disguise
the pain I carry
secure behind my eyes.. it's like it never goes away
it explains all of my fear and pain .
Do you think it will ever go away ?
If it does
I wonder what will happen embracing loneliness
comprehending vagueness

befriending uncertainties
playing with vulnerabilities
absorbing obscurities
appreciating difficulties
dredging malfunctions
living with illusions
Shoved between the pages of a forgotten book
sizzling out a tragedy the chills that go down my spine make me feel abnormal
Stone cold heart, hopeless with my decaying scars.
Betrayed trust, my hurt invisible to your lies
A monster is all I see beyond my reflection in the mirror.
If only I could escape these chains and cuffs
And once again run from my thoughts.
I hold in the anger, I hold in the pain.
Slip on the mask,
Used so many years.
Like a clock without numbers, a mirror without glass. A knife without a blade
the screaming voices in my demonic mind
Memories stare back at you,
through the mirror in your mind
Oh, what a wicked thing it is for flesh of one living creature to continue living through one living creatures death
For inside I hide the pain that's real.
This is it. No going back.
I breathe in, but I can't let it out.
Yet one piece was left the same.
Shattered hopes never died in vain
Love holding power unbroken by hate

The WillowTree

Maybe 

Maybe your just a dream

A shadow of my past

A synnergy of unlived promise

Maybe your only my inner flame

Igniting my Outer cause

Of destruction

Maybe your my only hope 

A rainbow cloud in black and white 

Maybe Babe

Your only my word

Called out to the Void

Maybe Babe

I am not even here

A life wasted through the tears of

The fading hope

Maybe only One Way

Maybe this my moment to

Let all my wish out

A song for freedom

A plead of Care

Before the Sun sets a last time

Beyond the willow tree

Maybe then

You and 

Me.

Just a dream for the brave.

 

Dedication from

a friend

 

Author Unknowned.

The kiss of death

Within these walls of blood and bone
the core of me is lifeless stone
forgetting faith, forever weak
never trust, never speak

under my mask, horror abides
once revealed, it will not hide
my true being, deranged and sick
which side of me would you pick?

my shell is breath taking, not a single flaw
my voice is enchanting, my beckoning call
my body is tight, your perfect dream
but who i truly am, would make you scream

beneath this layer of simple skin
lies a demon bedded within
cold and dark, it never sleeps
evil, mad, meager, weak

I came into this country without getting caught, and now everyday i am hunted and sought.
Whole nations have gathered to plan my destruction..they call me a breeder of crime and corruption.
I am more deadly then whiskey, more deadly then wine..hence i am known as the scourge of mankind.
I come in a powder thats nothing but waste, i look soft and fluffy, but im bitter to the taste.
I am brown, I am white..but deadly to use..but once your addicted i really abuse

From heads of state to the lowest of scum..i give you my word they'll be under my thumb.
I will take a richman and make him poor..i'll take a virgin and make her a whore.
I will make you lie,steal,borrow,and beg.
You will search for a vein in your arm or leg.
I will make you selfish and fill you with greed..regaurdless of color,religon, or creed.
My gift is an illusion, my blessing is fake, death and destruction follow my wake.
I am the kiss of death to all i touch..i start as a gift and end as a crutch.

Eternal Hearts

Eternal hearts live in us each 

Where only we can reach

Yet we don't always control them

Though we wear them as personal a gem

Gleaming brighter then the sun

Smiling so big it can't be undone

The color of the beautiful sky blue

As fresh as the morning dew

Our hearts go through many phases

During our lives travel through mazes

They can be broken down

Wearing only a frown

Eternal hearts live in us each 

Where only we can reach

Yet we don't always control them

Though we wear them as personal a gem

We give our hearts away

Letting others have them to play

No matter the pain they endure

They will keep beating…for sure

Though we try to guard at all cost

There are times they do get lost

Eventually we will find them again

Exactly where they have always been

Eternal hearts live in us each 

Where only we can reach

Yet we don't always control them

Though we wear them as personal a gem

If I Could

If I could I would make you see

Just how dear your are to me

A piece of my heart you do own

Never will that part turn to stone

Floating along on a cloud

My heart cries out loud

Anticipating your hand in mine

Knowing everything would then be fine

If I could I’d write you a poem of love

Every day so you knew it our love came from above

Knowing our love was written as fate

Straight from heaven’s gate

A whisper…a song

That plays life long

Invisible notes that only we

Could see

If I could I’d whisper in your ear

Whispers only you could hear

Telling you, you’re the only one

From heavens golden thread you were spun

Meant for only me to hold

From the same cast we were mold

You are the moon and I am the sun

That is what makes us one.

Wonder How You Are

Gazing to the sky to see your face in the bright shining stars

Wonder how you are

Searching in my heart to find your burning soul near my scars

Wonder how you are

Wishing to be near you with your arms around me

Wonder how you are

Want to hear the whispering in my ear by thee

Wonder how you are

Turn around and kiss you

Wonder how you are

The kiss of passion and lust that seals us two

Wonder how you are

Looking for the Ray of Light

A tormented soul trapped between the life now and the life that could be

Trying so desperately to get out of this life with this broken heart to start anew

I want that change but everything is working against me

Why can’t you please let me be happy like few

Tears are flooding my heart day and night

The heart is crying out the pain and agony      

Looking up in the sky to see the stars that shine so bright

Is this my destiny??

Looking for the ray of light

The ray of light that can heal my broken heart…..

 

Unanswered Hopes

Her cradled soul. The unrest of a half empty nest. 

Along with a sense of helplessness. A care, a love, a want, a need, a desire. 

Serenity, a sharing of herself, a sorrow, a deep sadness.

A disappointment, a hurting, a yearning. 

The burning of unsaved souls. 

The unabridged stories of her life. 

The lump in her throat, so sore. 

The thoughts of him and his whores. 

Questions that go unanswered, hope, sometimes regret, always pain.

Find Out What Is Your Love and LOve Life

I know there are times, things are tough. Some things are more, when we are older.
Even if I’m not alone online.. even if I’ve close Friends here.. even if I’ve a Soul 
Mate on earth.. 
I’m more & more older each year that pass away.

I have no one in my real life.. no one who care, who hug me, who hold my hand.
I dont know how many time I still will be on earth.. but, I want to meet my True Love.. 
and live with until the end.

I know that True Love, is to feel the life.. and live through the eyes and the Love of 
another one.. 
I never meet this True Love..this true person..

Life is what it is.. 
People cross our life.. 
All people haven’t the same goal, nor the same way, nor the same definition of the verb 
“Aimer”.

Some play with us.. Some use us.. 
Some just need travel’s friend for a while.. 
And sometimes.. we are only a step for others.

Difficult to find.. Difficult to trust.. Difficult to wait.. 
Difficult to have so much love in my heart & not being able to share it, with someone in 
my life. 
It’s sad & sometime painful to be alone with the half of a heart..

“When we miss Love… we miss to live” …
Don’t miss your life.. find your Love

What Is Love

Love isn´t an atraction, but a real energy.

It starts to come in contact with your inner God,

feel LOVE,

express LOVE,

LOVE dissolves fear.

When we feel LOVE,

we cannot be feared by anything,

since everything is energy

and LOVE encompasses all energies..

all is LOVE..

Wish I Could Reach Out and Hug You

Innocence, Tenderness, Caress, Hope, Joy of Living, Beauty, Purity ..
So many words.. feelings and insouciance..
Who makes grow safely ..
I love you CHILDHOOD.

We enter this world in complete Innocence ...
Tenderness and caresses.. we live our Childhood ...
Hope, Joy of life .. we exalts Adolescence ...
One word of Love.. and we reborn..
Beauty and Purity of Love, in flowering...

Offers me flowers,
I'll open my heart.
Show me.. Love,
I'd say.. "Forever".

I lOvE
To love you
My LoVe.

Love

I feel like I was screaming in the wind,

And nobody can heard me...

As if in the world, I were all alone,

And with me.. you aren't...

My heart is filled of you,

Of Love for you, it overflows,

Like a river overflowing its banks,

The flood of my heart pours,

From my eyes down my cheeks.

Each sound of its beating,

Is a note of the melody,

My heart is playing for you..

I feel your absence like a void,

As in the universe.. a black hole,

Something, with nothing, I can fill,

Cause you are what I need.

Love.. listen..

If, in the wind you don't hear my screams..

May the Angels whispers to you

The melody, my heart is playing...

If, in your dreams you don't hear these whispers,

May thousand and one butterflies,

Coming from the deepest of my heart,

Go cover you with kisses and my Love's words.

Love..

Feed me with your gentle words..

Comfort me with your warm arms..

Calm me with your sweet kisses..

Love me with your true heart..

Secures me with your care..

And never leave me.

Until the last day..

Until the end.

LOVE

Love is soft like a sweet gentle word
Love is hard so many times happiness is murdered

They call love  craving and desire
And the night is so cold and lonely
Love the dream afraid of awaking
Love afraid to die early....
Before love  actually lived
Love fragile and so brittle....

Your words of love, your gaze, don't break this miracle the circle never fades once you were embraced in love

In Time of Need

When I fall in the valley of doubt

I wonder what it is all about

Why are there such things that occur

It all seems to be a blur

A figment of my imagination

A synthetic vibration

A fake reality in which we live

Killing our very spirit to thrive

Our strength to move on

Unable to see a new dawn

Darkness surrounds your very soul

And no one to console

Wishing to disappear

Into thin air

With eyes filled with tears

You let go of all of your fears

Handing all of your burdens

To He who created the gardens

Walk within His path

Let go of human wrath

Fill your heart with love

For He who lives above

starburst in the milky way ... 18+

Tease me, sexy lady
move in those exotic ways
you know will stir my desire.
when my eyes behold
what I cannot touch
and my mouth overflows with your warm essence the tip of my tongue slides up the slippery furrow I feel your body tense
you are swallowed up in the ecstacy of your sexual pleasures soft under my finger tips
Swelling heat in a boiling storm I’m whimpering out your name Whispering ancient songs unsung
Feel my nails scratch your back
Hear me moan in pleasure
Hold me close to your body
Aching body in need, longing
 for your passionate embrace
A kiss for each star in the Milky Way
Making love in the dark
We transcend reality into an extraplanetary world
Of stars and far-distant galaxies
Across the milky way
an explosion of silver and gold
A starburst of eroticism

Blowin' in the Wind

The trade winds soft through the sighing trees
useless as wounded pride
Skinned into the warm embraces
Soft into your defenselessness
Across the years, across the centuries,
Across the oceans, and across the seas
Speak to us in words profound
lost in the gloom of dust and ages
seek no haven in my shadow
When you hear me passing
What surety is there
That we will meet again
your self and the magic
leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide
Rubbing the nakednesses with gloved hands
threats of northern winds die on the desert’s face
old memories of pleasure ancient histories of pain My life ain't heaven but it sure ain't hell
Trunks of secret words Let me float across the sky Til I can rest again Sun, rain, curving sky
i'm the howling wind please set me free

Good Friday

My cross is too heavy to wear
I looked with envy at others
whose crosses seemed lighter than mine
I beheld the cross
I impulsively wanted to wear
I forgot about the thorns
that started to pierce my skin
listening to the sound of my own footsteps
the weakness to fall for the selfishness
gruelling and bitter with strife
of this confusing swirl
Wondering where my journey would end
Walking this path I feel all alone
Weak and weary I find no strength to stand falling forward clinching sand
torn, battered and bruised I look again
I endure the anguish, as ropes bind hands and feet
a spike set on my skin
the cross I'm nailed with
horrid pain, would that jerk shake my soul
my own cross i wear

Be mine...

The cracks run along my face in jagged lines
Giving the venom contained truth
Hair black as ebony, skin white as snow
Her true love's kiss frees me from sleep
Interrupted by my soul smiled and shared a wink
Why can nothing be clear this unclear future
That haunts my dreams Shards of my reflection, in my skin
Like a fading painting I evaporate losing myself in the mystic shadows of life
A formless power makes you comfortable in the biting cold
My brightest glance of pride and power
My freedom that rests into whatever I do
My freedom to share the rest of my live together with you
The dark shadows vanish, shimmer glimmer rise and shine
from this day Jasmine your forever mine

I silently, die alone

memory pinches in the heart,
Somewhere you are happy
I got everything but still I am unhappy
can't distinguish between the road and the destination
My heart will continue to yearn for you
the treachery and the cheat
the unemotional stone
you changed me completely
you killed me completely
lies have made me crazy
don't promise life will be a bed of roses
when thorns torn in my skin
my body tug at the floor
My breathing shakes
I silently, die alone

The rise of the phoenix

Search for what it is you hold close
to you...your truth
smile inward thinking you have
the upper hand in life
sit in the knowing of the lies that
have been shared with you
they were once my truth too

Birth of self in a timeless empty abyss
like the Phoenix rising the screams will
be heard...self proclamation...searing the ears of the deaf
bold in hews of orange and gold...
majestic release founded on the breast
the one...the oracle...seer and believer
of truth.
recess's of our inner caverns

Voices cry out begging for attention
the misery falling on deaf ears
wanton desires crest the the banks
Out of my ashes will rise a new phoenix
that life eternal because the spirit never dies
My soul is pure and love flows in my heart
Love, peace and compassion is my way
Like a phoenix I rise my life here restarts
The phoenix wil fight and cry
with strenght barley found
the phoenix wil rise against the world from ashes, dark and gray